I am suffering from more nausea now than during chemo. I am not sure why.
I also think I am having a breakdown over radiation. Initially it seemed like no big deal. However, when I went to the consult I started to cry. Here I sit now crying, fearful of 20 days of having my head bolted down to a table.
I feel very alone. I "abandoned" friends, because I have no ability to focus, let alone remember to call people It's hard for people to understand, but talking makes me very tired. Facebook has been my only connection.
What is normal? When will things be normal again?
Am I going to need a stem cell transplant?
It is totally normal Ang. I don't feel like talking to people most days. I feel like facebook is my only connection to the world. I go through the day on autopilot, with a numbness inside that won't go away...and I am only the spouse. I cannot even imagine how you feel. But I am here for you and Chris, knowing all too well the hell that this is.
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