People don't plan cancer, and I am learning very quickly that you cannot plan the treatment. I am so focused on the chemo countdown, and planning after chemo events. Now that the date of recovery is pushed back again I realize maybe I might not be cured for Christmas. Cancer-you're fucking up my 5 year plan.
So, I held my breath until I saw the doctor, and sighed that I would be getting chemo. However, the nurse could not get a blood pullback when she flushed the port. This went on for a while. Then several heparin flushes. Then another nurse to give it a shot.
Then a larger needle. More saline flushes. More heparin. More pushing. Tape, cotton and finally a call for a clotbuster, atalayse aka TPA.
That med sits in the line for an hour. No luck. Same routine of saline, heparin, and flushing. Fluid goes in-no blood out.
It was too late for a flow study, so I have to go back tomorrow. I got a script for the flow study.
The surgeon who put the port in is on vacation, so he is not available to "tickle" me. My aunt's contact at MSK called last night and said to have the doctor rewrite the order for study and possible revision.
Boo.
This may be done tomorrow. It is becoming harder for me to find the silver lining in these delays. I know someone else in a rush for a cure. Maybe we are supposed to slow down.
Hopefully this post will help me sleep.
I didn't see your text response until about 12:30 last night, and I figured you would be sleeping, but I see you were awake. I'm so sorry this additional delay. You don't always have to search for the silver lining; sometimes you can just flat-out say that it sucks! This sucks!
ReplyDeleteI'm away, lake swimming & enjoying a margarita or two, but I will try to call you today.